To those who wait

Nearly slept beside you tonight
I wanted to-
You have no idea how bad
I wanted to-
just knew it wasn't time.

Wanted so badly to ask to
please be careful with my pen,
not regret my glass of red wine
or it's contents I pour for you,
to cling to your cross
when your way seems unlikely-
I just couldn't find the keys
to unlock my courage.

So I ask you now
for once chance
to write for you forever
beyond heaven and hell
and every flower between.