You wore me well

How funny is it
that I can't remember
what started it.

When did I
first notice
the likeness
and what we had
exploaded.

Now I see
Inbox(1)
and my heart
falls to the floor
I look
finding only
disappointment.

How so fast?
How so intense?
Why am I
unable to sleep
and constantly
dreaming of you
and your insatiable touch.

Will you fade
into a memory
I can rarely revisit,
you,
who I could
have loved
like no other,
who wore me
so well.

So beautiful

I still can't sing
that song for you
I want to
as much or more
as I wanted to then

and I should have
should have found a way
forced myself
sang through the guilt
and the sadness
called
written
waited
spoiled you even more

but that's what youth
does to us
so that we may
become wise
through pain

could I kiss you again
and not die in your mouth
if you were to
hang up again
I'm strong
you say
but strong enough
to sustain losing
again...

still can feel you
see you
hear your laugh
to me
so beautiful
you are

you will grow
be a mother
a wonder
while I remain
young forever
a tragedy
and the reason
why you cry
over ramen noodles

Before you leave me

let go of your worry
give me your ticket
and enter with me
for the while.


your scent
still strong in memory
still weakens
and takes away my air.


no
please
don't go
not yet
i've not had enough
to get me through.
i need to feel
once more
your breath on my face
your voice on my ear
your insatiable touch.


don't miss me too much
but miss me enough
so that you kiss
me so deep
before you leave me
that you take it with you
heavy on your mouth
and chest
for the days to come
without me.