The heaviest feather

If I close my eyes
and block my mind
from worry
while drifting off
to the bears
you can appear
in an instant
as the day
you were born
draped in only
your own magnificance
smiling through
a bitten bottom lip.
You motion
for me to come
closer to touch
what I have
only to imagine.
And your breath
warms me
from the inside out.

But the heaviness
snaps be back
to reality
in a place
where we both
are afraid to move
and afraid not to.
What is right
and fair,
what are the words
that open doors
where walls
previously stood
erected in stone.

I could tumble
over Niagra Falls
in this barrel.
I saw all the signs,
only your mention
of the roaring water
made it seem
possible-
likely-
maybe inevitable.

But the falls
are still off
in the distance
leaving me time
to paddle to shore
should either of us
choose to abandom ship,
while my thoughts
run away
to your bitten
bottom lip.

All I need

How sweet is this day
we swore forever
while hoping for one night
skin on skin
arm in arm
lip to lip.

To be apart on a wedding night
is so unnatural
but such is our story
so surreal
so magical
so unbelieveable
and yet so far.

Can I break the chains
that bind you there
with what I feel-
lend you the strength
to follow your heart home
to me?

Would you hate me then
foresaking all you know
for all you don't
but still need to survive
beside me
your truest love?

What if the years
become decades
and your child
becomes children
and your freedom fades
into darkness
where I cannot find you?

What if I grow lonely
and seek your embrace
in the arms of another
and become so infested
with guilt I can't bear?

I am not a child
nor too blind by love
to ignore what we both fear
may one day destroy our hearts
and leave us homeless
in the wake of that aweful storm.

I tell you I need you
but do you
know that I need you?
Do you feel me
reaching inside
to massage your
lonely heart?

I hang on your words
like a sinner in the gallows
swinging from the pole
as life slips from my lips.
Say you love me
that I may be cut free
and live another day
to love you
better than before.

Say we can finally be one-
rescue me from
the death sentence
of a life without
what was meant for it.

I plead to you
once more-
I need you

my love



I need you...

Sleep don't weep

Do you know
I spend my time
dreaming
of fresh new
ways to tell you
I love you?

To make my
heart beat loud
enough for you
to hear from
where you pace.

Relax your shoulders.
Let go of your tension
and embrace the song
I sing for you.

Fly in the night
from your rooftop
to mine
and dance with me
and God
beneath the starlit sky.

Angels smile from above
when they hear us
trade I love yous
to each other.

Until the day
you hold me in my sleep
and I hold you in yours,
these pages shall remain
our sacred house of love.

Save me

My heart is red as the setting sun
slipping away into night
we can be together.

Your lips--so perfect--breath fire
from within the deepest corridors
you awaken me from sleep.

When will you claim me
rightfully yours as I am
when will you save me?

The waves crash outside
and I am deceived by the water
for it is not your laughter.

Each passing minute intensifies
becomes more painfull
and more addicting.

I beg to drink you
fill myself overflowing
with your loveliness.

My love for you

My sweetest love.
How can I even
begin to describe
the depth of
what I feel for you?
Your voice weakens
my legs beneath me
and grounds my soul.
Every thought is of you,
how to rescue us,
ways to bring me there.
I think of uprooting myself
from my home that is
incomplete without you
to be in a place nearer
the one I am to adore.
I'm ashamed for lacking
words that would ease
the fear in you
that I could ever love
another so completely.
Life could never age you
unkidly to my eyes
for they see only
the magnificant light
within your heart and mind.
My desire for your touch
and sexuality are far surpassed
by my hope to one day
be the man beside you
to kiss away your tears
from your angelic face
until they fall no more.
I love you so much,
but those words
are far too simple
for someone deserving
of so much more.

Please, I beg you,
please believe.
Believe I will never surrender
my feelings for you,
never waste another
written word on another,
that I will search
for ways to tell you
I love you everyday,
that my heart is yours
completely and ungaurded.

My Snow White,
your prince has come
to awaken
your mind, body, and spirit
with the tenderness
you always hoped for.
There's no excuse
for not having found you sooner,
and I appologize for that
with all I have in me.
But I swear to you,
you'll never spend
another day of your life
feeling alone.

Say you believe in us,
in this miracle God
has bestowed.
Say your love for me
grows deeper
with every heartbeat.
Say you'll let me
shower you with our love,
our hopes,
our dreams,
and fill your soul
with the same beauty
knowing your love
has given me.
Say you'll accept
how special you are to me.
Say you'll never waste
another rediculous thought that
you could ever disappoint me.

You bring me so much joy.
It is to you
that I am drawn.
If you search inside
you'll find me there
whenever you need me,
smiling,
ready and willing
to do whatever it takes
to make everything in your life
warm and free of darkness.
This is but a fraction
of what I'm saying
when I tell you
I love you.

I want to be
where you are.
To be your protector,
your lover,
your best friend,
your confidant,
your partner in life,
the one you rely on,
your breath of fresh air,
the one you trust
your deepest thoughts to,
your husband,
your eternal.

Cascadilla

From where
have you come
and what took
so long?

You etherize me--
between fear
and bliss
I am bound.

Can you sense
the chains
that hold me
to the air
you breathe?

I feel weak
as a child--
beyond helpless--
yet finally
at home.

How could I
deserve this wonder
that has fallen
before me
from a book?

I've never.

I imagine
only angels
feel this from
hearing the flapping
of their own wings.

I will visit you
every night
in my sleep
where no amount
of water
or flesh
can keep you
from me
ever again.

Snow White

Never have I
been so sure

of life
after death

of the sun
following the moon

of the Divine's presence.

Heaven must
have sent you
proving itself real
restoring my faith.

I fear this
fire you lit
inside of me
burning hotter
than Satan's furnace
will overtake me
like a Phoenix.

I close my eyes
and I can see
the candle light
reflecting off you skin
through the window
of my soul
beckoning me
to come home.

When I lay down
I feel the weight
of you in my heart
and your hair
on my chest.

I'll wait another
eternity for you
as long as my journey
will end in your arms.