So beautiful

I still can't sing
that song for you
I want to
as much or more
as I wanted to then

and I should have
should have found a way
forced myself
sang through the guilt
and the sadness
called
written
waited
spoiled you even more

but that's what youth
does to us
so that we may
become wise
through pain

could I kiss you again
and not die in your mouth
if you were to
hang up again
I'm strong
you say
but strong enough
to sustain losing
again...

still can feel you
see you
hear your laugh
to me
so beautiful
you are

you will grow
be a mother
a wonder
while I remain
young forever
a tragedy
and the reason
why you cry
over ramen noodles